So you are left feeling torn, guilty and a little incomplete. Envy overcomes you when others enjoy the details you must sacrifice in order to stay the course that you started. Your daydreams consist of facts from one and pieces of the other coming together to achieve a perfect yet, possibly unrealistic scenario. You wish that you could merge the two and they could become 1 thus finally stopping the competition for your attention.
Having both seems possible so you shift and adjust events like knights on a chess board to achieve a perfect balance. Yet one thing is traveling vertical and one travels horizontal only to form a confusing intersection.
Choices. Decisions. Choices . Decisions.
At least in the closet you can skim the skirts and browse the shirts to settle one of the competitions of life. Workwear vs. Playwear . Finally diffusing one of the junctions of life.