Dinner at Red, Makati Shangrila then welcomed 12 midnight at home with loved ones and a bunch of fireworks. Proceeded to Urdaneta at Naissa’s to begin the first day of the year…officially. I was still sick as hell but I decided to not think of it and wore the dress I’ve been so excited to wear for almost 2 weeks. This is an up and coming concoction for GLITTERATI and I decided to make it more Glitterati and less Breakfast at Tiffany’s by adding ruched Tulle to the two out of three layers of the dress. It was a perfect New Year’s Eve dress!!! Had a very delicious dinner and about 5 bottles of bubbly and a whole lot of sparklers and fireworks ala Rockwell at home. It was perfection. Got my New Year’s kiss from my boy as well! yaaaay!
It felt good to be with my sister (finally) for New Year’s Eve. She is one of my reliable fashion inspirations ever. I love her. Spent 2 am- 7 am working on fashion and our up and coming line and collection for Glitterati! WORK WORK WORK! I was surprisingly very inspired in the morning!!!!
One whole year. Twelve months. 365 days. 8760 hours. 525,600 minutes. No matter what the mathematical figures say, all in all, they mean one thing- once again we wait to bid the year 2008 goodbye and welcome a new beginning, a new start and a new and better life in the new year.
A saying goes, "An optimist stays up until midnight to see the new year in. A pessimist stays up to make sure the old year leaves.” And I do have to say, despite ALL the drama of this year, even if I cannot wait for the year 2008 to leave, I am still an optimist- I also cannot wait to welcome the new year in. All the pages for the book of 2009 are blank, at 12 midnight, we open the book, and I am going to write the words in myself. I think that we write our own stories and every time we believe we know how it’s going to end, we actually don’t. Edith Pierce said it wonderfully when she wrote, "The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year’s Day.” And I cannot wait. Today is where my book begins and the rest is still unwritten.
This year, I found myself. Finally. I’ve lost myself so much in 2007 that 2008 came and I suddenly found where I belonged. And I have nothing but great memories despite the challenging times.
My Christmas this year was different, somehow I felt that FINALLY things were in place (with my sister this year!!!) and genuinely, I felt at peace. I finally figured out that sometimes, it’s okay not to have all the answers…. because most of the time, it’s the questions that matter.
I am starting the year in a completely different place from where I was last year- I changed my hair, I found a field that I enjoy (obviously!), I discovered that I can do things I never thought I could, I learned who my real friends were, I tried things I was too afraid to try and that I thought I’d never dare to, I changed certain philosophies I had, I rediscovered realities in life and most importantly, I finally got a big shocking discovery that just completely altered everything I had planned and mapped out for my life. I am not going to say it didn’t suck-because it did.I finally understood what it felt like to see everything you worked for crumbling down and having your dreams shattered right in front of you and somehow, it made me doubt everything I believed in. In a nutshell, I felt like crap. I felt everything was all blank and I was terrified that I had lost touch with reality.
Suffice to say, I did come out of it stronger, braver and wiser. The only way to stay out of the downward spiral is to completely disconnect yourself and rebuild from what you’ve got. Life goes on. The trick is to keep breathing.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! Cheers to 2009!