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This stunning unique 3D floral sweater is from romwe, you should really visit the site!! The Ted Baker bag was my Christmas gift from my boyfriend. I got him a chunky sweater and two books. He totally loved them!! Poor him, he was a little sick and today I’m going to meet him again!! I’m so happy!!
Now, I believe it is time to confess you my problem. I know it actually is not a problem, and I am really grateful for what I have, but it’s a tiny detail which concerns me a lot, and makes me cry and feel useless. It is something entirely stupid: the Style Gallery.
Some of us probably know how difficult it is to make it to the style gallery, there are topics in the forum section discussing this, but I probably make a bigger fuss than needed.
Anyway. I’ll explain why. The gallery means a lot to me, as it represents the recognition of my work. Because believe me, I work really hard for Chictopia. I have a lot of studying, as next year I’ll be giving my final exams, I have to not leave my writing behind, and I spend almost three hours everyday taking my pictures in the cold, jumping in my heels. You’re gonna tell me “don’t be grumpy about it, because you choose it, it’s something you love.” God knows how much I love it!! And that’s the reason why I need to be “reassured” in some way!!
But here’s the point: some of my outfits, with one or zero favorites, used to make it to the gallery, and many others too. Now, my last three looks, (you’d think the snowflake sweater is unlucky!!) didn’t make it. Current number of favorites: 39, 8, 7. They would have even made it to the front page, but they couldn’t, as they are not into the gallery. That has happened to many of my old looks, but I am obsessing with the latest three, because… well, when I don’t like a look I always tell you. But these three, I liked them, and I believe you, who are always so sweet with me, did too. I don’t mean to sound self-confident, on the contrary, sometimes I feel really self-conscious. But I feel it depends on luck, whether you’re getting on the gallery or not. Sometimes I feel… everybody has made it during the day, apart from my new look.
That makes me feel so useless, I feel that my pictures are crap, my style is crap, I mean everyone does it and I can’t. There are periods when everything makes it, and I feel so grateful and calm, and then I become so sad and self-conscious, and I spend my days crying. Because, believe me, I love fashion and writing more than everything!! (well, apart from my man:P) I feel so dedicated to it, to you all, and I really want to thank you for being so perfect and supporting all these months!! I really love you, my stylish friends, you give me courage and inspiration, and I don’t know what I’d do without you.
Ah, I feel lighter now, that I have told you about my weakness. I am not a person who just wants to be first in everything, I just want to know for sure if my work is good, or if it is crap. Your opinion will mean a lot to me: am I overreacting?
Thank you so much, dear Chictopians, have a perfect New Year!!