Why are women so self conscious of their bodies?
No one is perfect, so why kill ourselves trying to be it?
I am one of those women who felt that her body was such a sad case.
But sometimes, it takes a bold move to make you see your own true beauty.
I never intended to be a plus size fashion blogger.
Yes, I am plus size and I do love fashion.
And I’m pretty stylish, But I was always afraid to be considered plus size.
When I first heard the term, it had such a negative stigma.
And yes, that is my fat that you can see in the picture.
But I’ve come to love my shape. I am working out still though.
Would I love to have a flat stomach? Hell yea!
But am I going to base my life around trying to fit into someone else’s ideal of beauty? Hell no!
I have a stomach, stretch marks, cellulite, back fat, curvy thighs, and fat cheeks.
I wear a size 12-14, XL-1X shirt, 42 DD bra, and size 10 shoes.
I’m also 5’7", so when I wear 5 inch heels, I’m about 6’2".
But am I going to let it dictate my style? Hell no!
It took a lot of soul searching to come to this point.
I prayed, cried, cursed, shouted, screamed, and damn near killed myself.
All trying to be the “perfect” shape and be skinny.
Forget that! I just want to be the woman God made me to be. If it was skinny, I’d be that by now.
I’ve heard people tell me how much prettier I am since I’ve lost 30 pounds.
I’ve been told by men that losing weight wouldn’t hurt me.
I have been told by my father that I need to watch my weight.
But all of those people, they don’t live my life, so why are they even trying to tell me how to live it?
I am finally happy being me.
I eat healthier than I used to.
I am more active than I used to be.
But at the end of the day, I love my body for what it is, fat and all.
Bold by Sarah Jane R. Copyright 2011
About the outfit: It’s pretty self-explanatory. I wanted to push the boundaries of my confidence and style rules. Yes, I have back fat and a stomach and still wore a sheer shirt. If you don’t like it, I don’t really care. I felt so sexy and confident. I didn’t care about if someone saw my fat. I felt beautiful. I love my neon skirt. I usually don’t pair so many light colors together, but I needed a spiritual lift. The sheer blouse and bra are new purchases from Ebay. Actually the skirt was on a deal at Forever 21 Plus. I love my bright Chanel purse paired with the neon green skirt. All in all, I wanted to play dress up and push my boundaries. Where exactly would I wear this? Probably to a party or just to walk around my city.
Have a great Friday! T.G.I.F.! I’m off to work!
Peace, Love, and Happiness!
Sarah Jane R.