One dream in naked lights,
where I hold hands with butterflies
under the weeping sky, and
on the bearded hillside,
in a moment of violets.
A song atop the trees,
flying to the breathing hollow,
sung by the swallow and I.
Like a lost child then I awake
and weep in a moment of violets.
{A Moment of Violets, by Maria Elyse}
The sadness about Sammy has lessened a bit, but it’s far from gone. I don’t think it will ever really be gone. I dread going to bed every night, because I know when I do I’ll start missing him a million times more and start thinking of him more than ever. And then I just cry and cry and cry. Nothing will ever fill the empty space in my heart that belongs to him. Tonight my little sisters ate hotdogs for dinner, and there was one leftover and Sammy loved hotdogs, so we would sometimes give them (or another type of meat) to him as a special treat. When I saw the one leftover I almost said, “Oh, just put it in Sammy’s food bowl!” But then I caught myself and felt awfully upset. Incidents like that seem to happen more than once daily. Anyway, I am feeling a bit better about it all, but I’m still so very sad.
I got these shoes from Charlotte Russe for my birthday! Aren’t they darling? I had put “suede wedge booties” as one of my items on my birthday wishlist for my parents, but they weren’t quite sure what exactly I was looking for, so they got me a giftcard to go pick out a pair for myself. They are so comfortable and I love them so much. Everyone in my family seems to think they’re ugly though! Hmm. Haha. The purple knee socks I’m wearing are also from my parents for my birthday. :)
xo
Maria Elyse
First Impressions
