Do you ever find that although your real self is serious and and calm, and yet whenever you’re with certain people your ditsy switch turns on and you turn into a giggling, loud mess that is totally unlike the real you? This happens to me so often. I know that when I get nervous around certain people, I giggle. I just do. And then I pretend to act dumb, for whatever reason, and then people think that’s who I am. But it’s not, and I’m not. This summer I’m going to be around a whole set of new people, so I can work on being who I really am to these people, instead of stamping my fake, ditsy side as their idea of who Maria is. I think I might’ve already screwed it up. I just want people to not get the impression that I’m constantly a giggling, silly girl. I want people to know that I can be, and am deep, that I can be involved in intelligent, important conversations, that I do have opinions and want to express them without people disregarding me because of their impressions. But after they get a dumb first impression of me, and a fake one at that, it seems almost impossible to reverse or change it. There’s so much more to me, if people cared to look closer.