If it's not okay, it's not the end.

Updated on Jun 02, 2011
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accordingtoannika 's Thoughts:

Next week, it’s time for our Swedish high school students to graduate. The event is called studenten, and it’s tradition for girls to wear white (the guys are ususally wearing black suits). Sure, it might have been nine years since my high school graduation – but that doesn’t mean I can’t pretend I’m still 18 and have my whole life ahead of me!

When I graduated, I wore an off-white dress I’d thrifted the day before. I can’t remember ever seeing it in my wardrobe, so I guess someone must have spilled red wine all over it or something. Oh, and I was barefoot – I bought some two dollar shoes at the same charity shop, but I think my feet hurt and I left them somewhere even before the ceremony started. I’ve never seen any photos from my graduation – the fancy but affordable DSLR cameras had not yet entered the market. If I’d have graduated today, I would probably have taken about five thousand photos!

The weeks before my graduation were such a disaster. You see, up unitl the end of “högstadiet” (junior high, sort of), I was completely obsessed with my grades. I mean it: completely obsessed. If I missed one single point at a test, I would run off to the school bathroom and cry. I was the biggest geek you’ve ever seen and, looking back, the pressure I put on myself was absolutely ridiculous. My parents had nothing to do with it, even though of course I wanted to make them proud, but it was me and noone else who expected me to be the best in every single subject.

Naturally, everyone loathed me. It truly was a vicious cycle – I’d been bullied ever since I started school at six years old, and I figured my only value as a person was to get perfect grades. And the more obsessed I got about my studies, the more reason people felt like they had to torture me.

Well, that all changed. The summer between junior high and high school, I decided to undergo a total tranformation. An extreme makeover, if you so wish. I was going to go to a very advanced, well respected high school where noone knew me – I had a shot at becoming somebody else, “the person I was supposed to be”.

Read the whole story on my blog!

Comments (38)

sahkz
sahkz on March 11
nice lace dress
Soue_rire
Soue_rire on November 10
I really love your outfit it's swag ! i Love the dress ! <3
Anomali
Anomali on June 17
love love love this look!
S_agapoxxx
S_agapoxxx on June 08
fabulous lace dress :)
nimroo
nimroo on June 07
in love with the dress..
lola_in_transit
lola_in_transit on June 05
I love the dress and the story even more! Keep it coming! :)
Mimi_Walker
Mimi_Walker on June 04
Stunnin
KaylaMeow
KaylaMeow on June 03
so gorgeous.
stellapnp
stellapnp on June 03
i'm really in love with all your pictures!! you are so gorgeous!! i'm the same in school just a matter of pride:P
bettymyla
bettymyla on June 03
I love your outfit and this shot is gorgeous!
XcuseMeHoney_
XcuseMeHoney_ on June 03
I Likee The Outfit !
WardaJHm
WardaJHm on June 03
i love that shoes xD
AmyDai
AmyDai on June 03
So cute.
pure_win
pure_win on June 03
pretty lace dress !!
subliminaldoll
subliminaldoll on June 03
Gorgeous!
ShanieSoriano
ShanieSoriano on June 03
So lovely and beautiful! :) <3
Aprilfrances
Aprilfrances on June 02
I LUV LACE U ARE WEARING THE DRESS WELL.
jgulman
jgulman on June 02
I follow so many women on Chictopia, but you are by far my favorite Chictopian. I am always amazed at how beautiful your photos turn out and how you effortlessly put together simple yet striking ensembles. I am also so proud (and a wee bit jealous) that in only two short weeks you were chosen to be a style icon. If that doesn't say it all then I don't know what does.
anonymours
anonymours on June 02
cute dress
jenuang
jenuang on June 02
gorgeous dress
mimoji
mimoji on June 02
I'm in love with that dress. I'm also in love with the title from your blog post, I've never heard that phrase before and it's definitely one of the quotes I'll be saving for when I need a pick-me-up! I adore your style. [:
FASHBERRIES
FASHBERRIES on June 02
wow stunning
fashionblossom
fashionblossom on June 02
beautiful!! who takes your pictures?
bkgurl33
bkgurl33 on June 02
pretty
everydaylook
everydaylook on June 02
such a beautiful dress! love it!
HerNameIsMel
HerNameIsMel on June 02
FAB DRESS! <3
natalia_mar
natalia_mar on June 02
love your dress! and great pics!
katslovefashion
katslovefashion on June 02
so beautiful!!! absolutely love that dress! gorgeous :)
Anit_fashionbook
Anit_fashionbook on June 02
I love monki and the photo is exclusive!
ZaneZanite
ZaneZanite on June 02
love this beautiful lace dress with cute belt
courtingbliss
courtingbliss on June 02
I love this dress so much!
Kate_Robin
Kate_Robin on June 02
I look forward to reading what you write in your posts almost as much as I anticipate the amazing outfits! Your stories are always so interesting and witty.
accordingtoannika
accordingtoannika on June 02
Thank you SO MUCH, sweetie! That truly means a lot! <3
mochaccinoland
mochaccinoland on June 02
beautiful!! really hard to imagine u used to be a geek and were bullied in school. nice blog post :)
accordingtoannika
accordingtoannika on June 02
Thank you! Haha, well, luckily - things change. And hopefully the people who make life miserable for others get pretty miserable lives themselves, if they don't change their attitudes.
somolicek
somolicek on June 02
Lovely dress!!
iragee
iragee on June 02
Nice dress:)
_SERENITY_
_SERENITY_ on June 02
omg, absolutely ADORE your beautiful lace dress!! l want one like that too :)) <333 ++1xx
dina123
dina123 on June 02
Beautiful dress!
Zuzana
Zuzana on June 02
You are such a good photographer. Your pics are always so amazing. This is really cute dress. You look exactly eighteen :)
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