When I walked into the living room after getting dressed, my boyfriend did a double take and asked me “so you were serious about bringing goth back?”, haha
I guess after two years of reading blogs featuring LA and California girls wearing these awesome in your face grunge glam ensembles that are both casual and dressed up, with lots of hippie-boho accessories and goth crucifixes etcetera, my brain has been washed. Don’t get me wrong, I had this fase of dressing more badass in high school, but I haven’t been that into all black for ages. I love it on certain other girls, but on me it seems to feel too simple and almost poser-ish because I’m such a happy girl.
I’m telling you guys, I am not a trend setter at all. I dress quite differently from most girls in my university or at my workplace, yes. If you consider them and the highstreet stores, then maybe I am someone who dresses ahead of the pack. But when you spend a lot of time in the blogosphere, reading up on gorgeous girls that are LIGHTYEARS ahead of the pack, you can get the feeling that among all these stylish babes, you are one of the normal, ordinary ones, you know? I don’t mind that, I don’t dress the way I do to be considered weird or special. As a matter of fact, I try to dress the way I do without even considering whether my outfit will make me seem normal or weird. I find those two epitheton absolutely arbitrary and therefore not worth mentioning. I really try to simply let my intuition, taste and mood speak. And for me personally, I would have to push myself to be one of those ahead of the pack girls. Pushing myself would mean that I wouldn’t feel like “me” anymore, but like me dressed up as someone else. So I need some time and lots of visual inspiration in the form of other girls and pictures to let something seep in and feel “right” to me. This is my way of dealing with fashion, and my way to feel good in my own skin, not worrying about what other people might think about the way I dress.
So like I said, after two years of watching other girls rock this trend (themselves probably followers of Mary Kate Olsen and Nicole Richie), I’m ready for floor length maxis. Even maxis that aren’t even remotely summery or beachy or hippie. No, those are the safe maxis. I’m into the fashion forward maxis. Give me black, grey, jersey, velvet, sheer over floral, light, white, floaty, grecian, spaghetti strapped sun dresses anyday. Pair my dress with another thing that suddenly “clicked” in my head this summer, the denim jacket, and you have my outfit today. I felt completely at ease in this look. I went out grocery shopping, draped myself on the couch to watch 500 days of Summer for the first time (very cute movie btw) in it, made waffles with whipped cream in it and felt great the entire day. Fashion comes to me, I don’t force myself into something that doesn’t feel right to me. This whole process is about finding “me” and my own aesthetic.
Are you even remotely interested in my rant? :D