About a month ago, I wrote about how I was presented with a situation that left me quite traumatized on my blog . What happened not only left me scarred but it eventually made me question who I am, what kind of person I am, and what my morals and values are. I’ve always been proud of the fact that I have a great sense of morality and respected myself for not doing certain things or falling into peer pressure as easily as some others do.
When you hear stories about people you know getting accidentally pregnant in high school, having their identity stolen through credit card theft, or being raped, you never think it will happen to yourself. I was exactly that way; I always believed I was smart enough to not get into those type of situations. But I did, and now I’m confused about my sense of self, while feeling vulnerable and weak. I’m sure since I haven’t exactly been very specific about what happened, many of you may not relate or understand but it’s very scary to question what kind of person you are when you’ve always believed yourself to be a certain way and took pride in who you were – if that makes any sense.
How this relates to fashion is that I’ve also started questioning the way I dress and what my style is. I’ve always envied those who had a distinct look as it’s something I’ve always believed I lack because I like many different looks, styles, and trends. But I’ve never been more confused as I am now… everything’s building up and collectively, it’s really draining me. It’s just a really unsettling feeling to not know who you are and question everything you’ve thought you always knew about yourself.
Anyway, here’s an outfit that I thought I’d share with you guys. It’s really different than what I normally wear but I wanted to try something different, thinking I’d possibly “find myself.” I’m 95% sure that this isn’t my style but it’s good to try new things, right? I definitely felt like I was wearing a costume, so maybe I’ll save something similar for Halloween…