Long time no post; three weeks? Well it isn’t because I’ve been busy with anything, I didn’t touch my Juki for most of the time. I really don’t know what I’ve been doing, just moping I guess, I am rather in the moping mood.
Maybe it’s because I’ve been scared, just been hiding in my room. I feel guilty when I eat, especially when it’s ‘luxury’ food like blueberries, muffins, junk food. I feel like my dad doesn’t understand what kind of predicament we’re in. I mostly feel bad for my mom, she’s worked so hard to buy a nice house. I get angry when I’m in my basement (where my Juki is) and downstairs, just seeing all the junk that my dad’s wasted money on. What will we do with it if we do have to sell the house? I should seriously consider secretly ebay-ing it all.
I’ve been racking my mind about how to make things better. I have to go to school soon and I’ll have less time to do anything. I’ll already be working on campus but I’ve been trying to find another job. I feel like it’s so futile, I’m praying to get a job in a lab on campus, but I have so little experience in that field. I’ve been procrastinating writing cover letters for this reason, but my mom urges me on for the slight chance that luck will be on my side. If not, I’ll try for just some odd jobs; grocery store, restaurants, but my mom will disapprove in case it jeopardizes my studies if I do.
I wanted to show you my denim vest in this post. It’s a worn pair of jeans, for some reason I always get holes in inconvenient places. Maybe I’ll show the tutorial on how to make it some day.