93 degrees. WTF. And this is what I wore!!! I’m seriously crazy. I was a hot, hot mess by the end of the work day. Then I got stuck on the T underground with no a/c. Lots of bodies and a little too much BO to bear.
I apologize for my lack of chicness. The thing is, I think I lost my desire to be chic. I’m not quite sure where I dropped it, but one thing’s for sure, it’s gone. Haha. The thing is, “being chic” means looking good in what you wear. It does not mean you need to be wearing rompers or floral dresses or leather jackets (though I’d absolutely love to be wearing any one of these). It’s definitely fun to play with trends, but at the end of the day, you have to look good in your own clothes. We’re not all Agyness Deyn, despite my ongoing battle with wanting to be extremely tall (at least 6’1) and thin (I mean THIN).
For one thing, I like my boobs. Sometimes I want to slice them off like deli meat because I look fat in certain clothes. Things just don’t hang on me the way they do on models because there are two C cup mounds that warp drapage like crazy. I still like them because I am an Asian woman who was lucky enough to get away from the Asian A curse! I like that my face isn’t really pretty. I like that it’s kind of awkward and sometimes interesting to look at. I’m just lucky that things look in proportion. I hate my hips. My first child is going to bungee jump out of that mother. There will be no prenatal drugs, it will just fall out. My butt is flat. This has to be my number 1 pet peeve. I have a big flat butt. It’s not perky, it’s not cute. Nothing. I do squats and lunges and the butt machines at the gym. Nothing. My next step is getting butt implants. My legs are ok. Somethings they feel a little thick, but I have athletic legs that will never be stick thin (BIG SAD FACE). Sorry, that’s just my irrational subconscious wanting to be a waif. There is nothing I can do about the build of my legs. They are thick and muscular and strong. They will not be bean poles unless I starve myself and the good Lord knows that will NEVER EVER happen.
:sigh: Ignore all my ranting. I really just don’t want to study. Hmmm… the Celtics and Bulls are playing right now. I get to watch it on the television, the Boy gets to watch it at the Garden. Lucky prick.
Whatev. I’m over it.